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R.I.P Internet on Home P.C., Le sigh, depressed
Hey readers. How are you? I am so despondant right now. Yes, that means depressed. It's a really long story as to what happened and it really sucks. First of all, rumor has it that Crooked D will not air on Disney Channel but on a DVD type thing. At least that is what SE has said. But I dunno. I'll just be looking in yahoo's tv thing for a while. Le sigh. So, thursday night after I wrote the final part to TBSI, AOL went screwy on me, everytime we'd get to the network step 5 part of the signing in process it would have an illegal operation. I left it alone that night, but I worried. When I got home yesterday (Friday) I tried again, didn't work, but le sigh, I was so determined that I tried to go and do some aol redoing. So I stuck in a 9.0 Omptimized disk in, you know upgrade it. I think it would have worked if I had not accidentally deleted a system file of some sort that has to do with like internet programs. Don't ask. I don't know. I don't know which one it is. Maybe Uncle C can fix it. But, I don't know what I am going to do, it really bummed me out. I just.... was so upset about it. A side note, I am one of the Musicians in the school play, fine with me, I went by after the pep rally to see it, on our way back home (we hadn't even gone home, but to H-E-B) I had a mini nervous breakdown. I broke down into tears because of all the things I have to worry about. The computer, English, Pre Cal (I got a 26 on the test thursday! I know, it sucks bad), and many many many other things. It hit me hard like a ton of bricks, and my mom was like I was going to have an ulcer because of all the worrying I do. It is so horrible. I wish I had the money to afford a computer, I wish my mom did too. Life sucks. I know how KP felt in David's fic, "Shego Rocks!" Basically, the computer works, but the internet does not. Please do not email me at aol, but at msn. ashley_bsb_fan_13@hotmail.com is the email. Le sigh. What about the notes? I don't know. Maybe in the future. My mother asked me why did I take on so many courses if I wasn't going to be able to do it. I told her I didn't know, but in reality I do know. It all roots to KP and my writing. I guess my writing makes me feel like I'm immortal or something, and I think I can do anything like KP can do. But I can't. I swear, I totally could not sleep at all. I woke up at 6 am this morning, because I guess I am afraid of nightmares and stuff like that. One song, just one describes how I feel right now. And that is Avril Lavigne's Complicated. That song works for almost anything... as does, now that I have thought about it, Kim's Grief. All one would have to do is to change words and junk and get something totally different. Though I don't recommend that, as it is my work. Meredith, I miss thee. David, I miss thee as well. Le sigh. I keep Le sighing. It really sucks. You know? Anyone wanna donate to the get APB/AW a Dell Laptop with Windows XP or something similar fund? Seriously I have like 17 dollars and 2 cents. Expect fewer and far between entries. :( :'( It hit me this morning that what I have always meant by that writing makes me feel better is that I like how my own words sound to me. It's like music to mine ears. :) And oddly enough, I've barely had much to laugh about lately. Friday's Thought/Quote of the day: "Ooh, you hear that Kim. He's gonna get you!" - Fred Weasley to Kim Possible in response's to Ron's threat to Kim, Kim Possible's Harry Potter: Chapter 7 Today's Thought/Quote of the day: "I've got a cousin who has a vibe like her." -- Kim Possible on Luna Lovegood, Kim Possible's Harry Potter: Chapter 8 Friday's Word of the day: efficacy Today's Word of the day: appellations Hakuna Matata. |
