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giving blood, fears, AIDS, tests
Good evening my lovely fans! How are you? I'm fresh from a refreshing shower and I'm doing okay. Alright, so last night my mother and I registered for the S.A.T in March, it turned out that I have to go to King to take the test, but that is okay with me. I won't mind. I did not write a single word last night, I was deeply engrossed in a PBS 2 hour thing on Auschwitz. I will try to write tomorrow and over the weekend. I fell in love with Tickle for the millionth time ever. I gave blood today, more on that later. I went to Mrs. Peter's to leave her a note so she could bring her checkbook to buy from me tomorrow, and to find out where I could sign up for the blood drive. I got my Ashley Benlove pen today, yo! How cool is that?! Speech. We did outline, I enjoyed it somewhat, I had a peppermint to help with my cramps (I heard they really work!) Math. Kristen and I and Carly worked in the lab. Kristen begged me to get her a red bracelet that said give blood when I do give blood. LOL. I told her I would. English. She decided not to take the list today, we have to get them signed by our parentals because some people had illegal stuff on their lists (Tamara from History had kidnap someone on her list, for instance). And then we took a test. I looked at Nancy's list. It was cool. She had a few that were on my list too. LOL. History. 110 on yesterday's test! Then, like, we did the outline. WWII is so fascinating. 2 parts of it. God. Okay, so at lunch, I ate lunch, then I went to the blood drive. I signed up and I went. I got asked all these questions in a room, like, "have you had sex..." and stuff like that. I should have said, "Ma'am, I'm a virgin, and other than writing erotica I have not done anything." She showed me a list of what they'd be testing for when I donated blood. Including HIV/AIDS, syphilis, etc. I was like, "OMFG." More on that later on. I gave like less than a pint, the blood would not come out, prolly cause I'm on my period, and when they were going to like stick me I got all scared. I tried to give myself a "K.P." mentality, but come on, I am inherently a chicken. I mean, like hello. I mean, then I started worrying after I gave the blood that they would find something that would eventually kill me (like HIV/AIDS or something), and I've been sick about it ever since. I mean, I know that I have nothing to worry about, seeing as the closest I've ever done to sex is writing erotica, and that's just my mind. And I've never done drugs either so, but still. I mean, that is my biggest fear, to find out I have something that would squash all my hopes, goals, and dreams and kill me. I don't think I could keep on living if I knew that I had something that would change my life for ever. I don't know how Laurie Lee's done it for 28 years. And of course, I think I would have known by now, too. But still, I'm incredibly paranoid, what can I say? And we all know that. I'm just so afraid. It's like with Rose in that one GG episode where she thinks she may have HIV/AIDS. I got a coupon and a free shirt though! I missed most of chemistry, but we just had a taks type test thing. Theatre. Woolery calmed my fear that I have nothing to worry about. I felt like crap though. My stomach was like queasy (and still is!) and I found it difficult at all. Health. Of course, as luck would have it, some guy from the same place Laurie Lee came to talk to us about AIDS. I swear to god, It was bad enough I was fretting about, and now I have to hear about it some more. Ugh, what a day. Rehearsal. I helped Megan, Sherodan, and Ariel with their lines. It was okay. I saw Gabriel and he was like all mean about my fears after I confided to him, saying it would be ironic. I was like, shut up, that's not funny. LOL. The irony of the quote for today! Thought/Quote of the day: "Not exactly the best friend of normal people. Makes me wonder what I would be made to relive. What do you relive? You don't have to answer if you don't want to." "I relive when Voldemort tried to kill me." -- Kim Possible and Harry Potter on a Dementor's Power, Kim Possible: Kim and Harry's Chat Word of the day: eglantine Hakuna Matata. |
