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Yearly Review, Version 2007: AB Style
2007. This year was an insane year. It was a transitional year, it was a year of many changes, of changing of my priorities, of becoming more open, of major events on the diary, of major events in my life. The Year of the End of Kim Possible and Harry Potter, the Year Of Bringing South Park back into my life, I guess could best describe this year. I hit my 3500th entry (not noticed), my fifth year of being here, turning twenty, unlocking the diary, enjoying season four of Kim Possible. It was a great year, with some bad events and experiences that I would rather never think about again, but still, it was a great year. I enjoyed this year, because with the good, the bad, and the ugly experiences, I again, have grown as a person. And, that’s the whole point to living. So, as per the last five years of doing the yearly review, I am going to use pretty much the same format as previous. Plus, it is always very cathartic to be able to look back on the year, and put it into the past. To quote Rafiki, “It doesn’t matter it’s in the past!” January. The beginning of this month and the year began with saying this, “The start of a new year. 2007. And of course, I continued with my tradition of the last few years, since December 31st, 2007. End and begin the year with Kim Possible! I watched So The Drama last night! YEAH! Lots of things to look forward to this year, yeah!: Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix movie, Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End, my 20th birthday (that just makes me shiver), the diary's fifth birthday (in just 24 days! YEAH!), and, last but SO NOT LEAST: KIM POSSIBLE SEASON 4 PREMIERE! YEAH!” I was preparing to see season 4 of Kim Possible, I was deciding about the future of the diary: whether to unlock the diary after many years, bad news about American Dragon: Jake Long, joining Fanfiction.net, which pretty much ended really badly, and that’s all I’m saying about that. We also had the infamous me getting a signed Kim Possible script from Bob Schooley and Mark McCorkle, which was really the highlight of the month, I also had the five year anniversary birthday, which culminated in a huge five entry thing that basically was a review of five years on the blog. There was this on the 15th: “I think it's finally hit me. After knowing about it for 1 year, 1 month, 2 weeks and 3 days, it's hit me. I finally know it's actually gonna happen. After 7 and a half months of fighting for it. What am I talking about? It shouldn't be that hard to figure out, but for you oblivious readers out there... I am referring to season 4. It's finally hit me for sure. It's gonna happen and it's gonna be good. I can't wait to see what happens. I mean, dude, it's gonna be cool.” I started to take Tai Chi, and finally, the unlocking the diary, after some 3 years, 7 months, and 12 or 13 days, which pretty much began the diary anew again. February. The second month had me posting my fanfiction at FF.net, which as we all know, ended really badly, for the first few days, finding out about book seven being completed and ready for people to read by mid-year, the beginning of Season 4, with 7 great episodes, changing the blog’s layout, and crazy weird entry titles, and Anna Nicole Smith’s death. For example. February 12th, I talk about season 4’s greatness: “Yeah, I really love season 4. I mean, they kicked up KP a notch, they made it edgier, cooler, sexier, sleeker, and more amazing. I mean, seriously. The insinuation Junior says to Ron in drag when he says, "Stay away from my girlfriend!" of "I thought you were a lady." is testament to that. I mean, so Ron's a lesbian? Or, Kim is? How crazy. LOL. I mean, the show is so amazing. Not that it wasn't amazing before. It's just... there's a certain... je ne sais quoi that just... it just... I mean, everything in the show has changed. We got a couple, the tweebs in high school, a new car, Monique, Jim, and Tim helping out on missions, shapeshifters, aliens, and more. I mean, KP is gonna have a kick ass season. And I'm grateful for the chance to save the show and I'm grateful for season 4. If you told me before S T D was to air that we would get season 4 within two years of STD's airing, I'm sure I would still have been part of the SKP and MKP movement. I mean, yeah. But, off topic. I've watched all four episodes at least 5 or 6 times already. That was what I did yesterday. But, it so awesome, plus I want to have the episodes emblazoned in my mind like I do with the first three seasons. And next up? Car Alarm, on the 17th. This Saturday! Yay Kim's kickin new car is introduced. Hawt DAMN. Basically, watching all the new KP episodes Saturday night was like having really great sex with somebody. It was like an orgy with Kim, Ron, and Monique.” And there was this on the twenty eighth, “Yep, I'm on my period. Cramps, fatigue, all the bullshit that comes with it. I swear, I am SO OVER getting a period. I've been getting those for SEVEN years as of February 19th. Yes, I'm lame I remember the exact date. But, whatever. I mean, I'm tired of it. I ought to take birth control JUST to get periods only every four months or so. Who cares if I'm not having sex, at least I'll be prepared when I am sexually active. Which better be in the next 2 years.” I also talk about my conservative views on divorce/marriage and pregnancy. I also discussed and ranted about serious issues, such as hating things without knowing about them, which I’ve consistently did over the last few months. And of course, discussion about being ready for intimacy. March. This month was interesting. I had a bad experience at fanfiction.net, which is now in the past, and I’m truly glad it’s over, even though sometimes I think about it. There was a weird random The Golden Girls marathon I had as I completed my DVD collection, the revelation that the episode “Rufus in Show” of Kim Possible was the episode in which I lost my Kim Possible virginity, freaking the hell out because of Grande Size Me, I went through a bit of depression for a while and quit eating because of some issues I had, and I ultimately stopped posting fics at FF.net because it just wasn’t for me. Which is my official statement, and I still hold that I don’t want to talk about, so I’m keeping that short and wiped my hands of the whole thing. I also got a very short haircut, writing an Internet Addiction paper, still being unable to talk about my deceased uncle. I had a KP Marathon and wrote a 400 question plus KP trivia game, and Diaryland problems. Look at some of the effects of writing a paper, on March 11th: “It was insane, I think I'm doing better now. I really do. I'm eating food again, I'm watching KP, and back into the KP love, of course, that wasn't too hard, just give me a good KP episode and it'll be all good. The computer and Internet thing is a work-in-progress. I think after spending all this time working on my English paper for the written and visual rhetoric of Internet Addiction, I was worried. I'm gonna have to admit, that I... I was addicted to the Internet as recently as a few months ago. I spent sun-up from sun-down online, mostly at RS.net. I remember people making comments about that and telling me to go out and do something. I was offended and I basically ignored them, and slowly it tapered off. And, then, I started working on this paper, and I got freaked out when I realized, I actually was addicted to the Internet. So, that's probably why I'm spending less time on the Internet. I guess, that once I start writing fanfics again I'll be totally back to normal and whatnot. I figure I'll just need some time.” Oh, yeah, and then there was the news that my cousin Kat was pregnant and then going to a fun wedding! I also started posting pictures and videos on my blog a lot! The end of the month had some great stuff about talking to the KP creators which was amazing and of course, getting to 100,000 posts at RS.net. “Yesterday, about 24 hours ago, after posting the daily entry, I hit 100,000 posts at RS.net. It happened just like that. There was no great explosion. No crunch. Nothing. It just... was. I'm pretty excited about it and it supersedes most of the events of this month, which is awesome, as I've moved on from the events of earlier this month. Which is great. I don't plan to go back to FF.net next month (I had planned to go back next week) or anytime in the next few months. My feelings on that place have not changed, but at least, I tried it. I get credit for being open-minded you know? I hated it before, I hated it during, and I still hate it. But, anyways...” That pretty much sums up the month, but I don’t feel I’m done yet. I wanted to make passionate love to Sigmund Freud, and oh yeah, the Big Bother Debacle right at the end of the month. Baddish good month. April. The month began with anger over the Big Bother Debacle, still somewhat upset over and Grandpa RD’s call to me where I talked with some of my idols, I revamped several pages of the diary, which I do from time to time. There was the Virginia Tech Massacre which I must say left me deeply disturbed, the two days I had the flu! There was also the beginning of my personal journey as a KP fan, deciding if I wanted to see a season five of the series. Ultimately, we know that, don’t we? I believe I met poolagirl of Diaryland this month (I’m not sure, actually), and I totally love her now! There was this on April 8th: “So, today... 2 years ago. At 7 pm, an event that I had been waiting for 18 months and denying for at least 6 months happened. Kim Possible: So The Drama premiered. Kim and Ron became a couple and the show ended as we knew it. Right? WRONG! The ending of that movie was not the ending and the Save Disney Shows Movement said, "We want season 4!" I find it mind boggling that two years ago today I was sitting in my house moping as So The Drama was going to premiere and the show was going to end. I still remember my feelings about it. And it pains me to remember, but had I not felt those pains and acted on them, along with the rest of the MKP, this entry today not would have included me raving about a new episode of Kim Possible and saying I can't wait to see the new episode. I never expected two years ago that there would be a season 4 happening as I typed this on April 8th, 2007. A part of me may have, but I really didn't. I realize the miracle that was season 4 and I recognize the irony that the two year anniversary occurs on Easter when the miracle that is the basis of Catholicism and Christianity happened. The resurrection of Jesus Christ. I feel truly blessed that both of these happened. I feel doubly blessed to have been part of the reason that season 4 happened and sitting watching the episode. I feel even more blessed to be a Kim fan for the three and a half years I've been a fan. Two years ago, I was a fan of 20 fans, now I've been a fan almost 4 years. I haven't watched S T D yet, but I plan to. I intend to. I have to. I dunno if I'll cry, but knowing me? Maybe. And, so, I lift up my Dr. Pepper and say God Bless, Happy Easter, and Happy Kim Possible Season 4 and drink.” An entry on the 11th said this, and I find it interesting, because on some level, it sure as hell came true, “I'm starting to wonder if this is a year of transition. I mean, Harry Potter is ending this year. Does that mean something else is coming to my life this year at a later time? I'd like to think so. What is it, I cannot say. I look forward to seeing what it is.” Turns out, it was SOUTH PARK! ;D Crazyness! I also spend a lot of this month talking about whether or not I can accept the end of Harry Potter and Kim Possible. And there was also some stuff about me being a bit upset about stuff. May. This month started off shitty. It started off with Diaryland being down for about 7 days, which left me really messed up. I also finished my first year of college, boo-fucking-yah. There was the fifth anniversary of my foot accident. The summer began and my grades started to come in. I also began my independence. I got a State I.D. and a checking account and I got a new pair of glasses, after spending four-five years with the same ones! There were good KP episodes that I loved. And of course my aunt winning tickets to Schlitterbahn. That was a fucking odyssey. Oh, and of course, I found Scrubs! May 17th: “Speaking of sitcoms from NBC, I feel I have to mention a new favorite of mine. On May 1st, I accidentally found a show on Comedy Central at 10 am and I found I really liked it. It's funny, the characters intrigue me and there's a crazy KP connection with it. Scrubs. I really like it. It's funny.” And, I finally became strong enough to deal with stuff, like saying goodbye to Kim Possible and buying certain items on the ‘Net. The 28th: “News just broke that Bob Schooley and Mark McCorkle have left Disney Studios for greener pastures, which basically means, season 4 is the last season of the show. Mainly because Disney didn't want any more KP. I knew it. Jerks.But, Kim Possible is Bob and Mark's baby, just as Star Wars is George Lucas's baby and Harry Potter is J.K. Rowling's baby. I just hope that season 4 is completed by them and not someone else, because it would just be... devastating. It would. Kim, Bob, and Mark have my loyalty, and I feel that the fight for season 5 shouldn't go on unless Bob and Mark are working with the redhead, themselves. Because, they made her. It's their baby. They created this wonderful show that came into my life 4 years ago this August and I will always love her. She will always have a place in my heart as the main influencer in the person I am today. Thank you, Kim. And thank you, Bob and Mark. Deep inside me, I knew that this would be the year in which Kim ended. I believe that it's destiny, because Harry Potter is going to complete this year as well, that two of my favorite things are going on to be just memories by the end of this year. I must admit, that I didn't have the same great feeling of "I know we're gonna win" with the fight for five as I did with the first fight. Nabu has said many times that all good things must come to an end. Harry is ending this year, and now Kim. Whether or not I can handle that is a question for myself. But, I feel that I can because... I believe something major is going to happen in my life this year that will change my life in an even bigger way than Kim Possible or Harry Potter did. I mean, yeah, I think I'll prolly still try a bit for a season 5, but I think it's time to let go. Now, it's time to fight for the seasons on DVD.”—Interesting to see how I will eventually handle it. And, it’s amazing to see how strong I was about the whole thing. June. There was the Chef Mafia, hatin’ on my television, redoing my collage, watching Little People, Big World, thoughts about the end of Harry Potter and Kim Possible. In the beginning of the month, I had a feeling that kind of fit well with what happened later on in the year. On June 2nd I wrote this, “I have this feeling that something is coming to change my life before the year's end and there's a lot of stuff happening that says that this is happening. I mean, KP and Harry Potter are both ending their series. I have to admit, I don't want it to end, but I am ready. Let's just see if that's true.” Of course, given that it’s the middle of my summer vacation, I have tons of really short menial entries. For that, forgive me. And, of course, the month countdown to the final Harry Potter book! I re-read all the Harry Potter series, and I dealt with stress relating to applying for jobs and my aunt wanting to recarpet our house (which happened later in the year!) And of course, I also started to slowly watch South Park again. And I discuss coolness in South Park. Fun stuff! July. This was an interesting month. I dealt with the end of Harry Potter, I talk about stuff related to the end of Kim Possible, and I want Schlitterbahn more than Cartman wanted Kyle to suck his balls in the Imaginationland trilogy! There was two good Kim Possible episodes, yay! Both of which were really good and what seemed to be the beginning of when I started not watching Kim Possible a lot. I finally decided how much I really hate spoilers. On July 3rd I said thus: “But, yeah, I hate spoilers. I decided that now. It's okay to spoil stuff that's been out two years for movies and books and two to twelve months for tv shows. Of course, I already know how Will & Grace ends. But, I mean, can you imagine if I had the finale of KP or Harry Potter spoiled?! Dear God, that would ruin it for me. It would simply be awful. So, I'm going to be very careful when I discuss the book, I'll take extra steps. But, I will discuss the book after I complete it on the blog. But, make sure I have tons of spoiler warnings. But then again, the idea of that, I'm not ready for. I'm ready to read the book, but I'm not ready to complete the story and see how it ends. That I'm not ready for. But, I've got to get ready for Deathly Hallows. I've got 18 days. A la Armageddon.” Oh, yeah, and there was insane rain for about 4 to 8 days. I’m not actually sure, but it was a lot of rain and I remember having Seasonal Affective Disorder and Cabin Fever! Oh, and of course, the tons of nervousness and anticipation that preceded the final book of the series. There was also a great little moment where I discuss the whole priests raping little boys thing. And of course, reading the final Harry Potter book! And here’s a bit from the 23rd, “They were: "The scar had not pained Harry for nineteen years. All was well." When I read that, I closed the book, and I immediately started sobbing, I walked into the living room clutching my book, sobbing uncontrollably, sitting on the couch. My mother who finished the book hours before I did, who was lying on the couch as well, was like, "He LIVED!" Unable to understand my tears. Yep, I sobbed uncontrollably unashamed at the end of the Harry Potter book. I know who dies, who lives. I must say, that the book was everything I ever wanted and that the epilogue was okay, it should have been much better. But, it was still enough to reduce me to a bawling pile of me.” And of course, there was the grief and sadness that I experienced when I finished the Harry Potter series. But this month was a good month, because I got what I wanted and I got to let go. August. This month was kind of an interesting month. It was the start of the serious countdown to the end of the Kim Possible series and my second year in college, compounded by one day without an entry because I finally went to Schlitterbahn! The hottest, coolest times in Texas! I also went through a time where I did nothing but read and read and READ! On the 7th I said this, “So, yeah, a month from now is that the finale of KP is gonna air. I'm excited, but I'm also sad about the whole thing. Actually, I don't really know what to think. I mean, I'm sad and all, but I know that KP will live on forever in my heart. I mean, it's a big episode, two parts, called Graduation. And it's crazy to know that for real, this is it, this is the end. I thought about fighting for a season 5 a while now but I don't think I will. I mean, I don't Bob and Mark want it, so pretty much that says no. But, alas, I'll have KP with me forever.” I also played around with what classes I want to take. Oh, yeah, and there was that insane thing in Corpus in relation to boil advisories. Oh, yeah, and who could forget my photographic journal of my trip to Schlitterbahn! Love it! And I said this on August 22nd: “And I felt really depressed and wanting to cry. I mean, seriously, in 2 and a half weeks, Kim Possible will be over and done with. It just makes me so sad. I'm really not ready to say goodbye. I think what I'm really hoping for that when it's over and done with, I cry and sob uncontrollably, like I did with Deathly Hallows. I mean, I barely closed the book and I was already sobbing and crying and bawling. It's all I want. Just to be able to cry when the end actually happens. It might help me heal. I'm still sad and mourning for the end of Harry Potter. The thing with Harry and Kim is that I've been so involved, emotionally, personally, psychologically that it's hard. I mean, it's not like I just found the series and it's already gonna end within a year like Scrubs or Will & Grace, or had been over for a number of years like The Golden Girls. I got involved with them at their peaks, and I spent years getting to know the characters, falling in love, caring about them. But, it's not like they won't be part of me for the rest of my life. I mean, it's been years since I wanted to marry Nick Carter (remember that, Vanessa?) but I still have a candle for him. Dorothy Zbornak said in the finale of the Golden Girls that even though her relationship with Stan was waay over (nearly 10 years), when she's with Lucas, there's a fathom of him there. Basically, wherever I'll go, they'll be with me.” And of course, a lot of heartbreaking feelings about the end of the Kim Possible series. September. So, this was the month that was interesting. It was the end of the Kim Possible series for real (unless something happens). Here’s something I wrote on the first day of the month, which kind of set the rest of the year off, “Anyways, yeah, I'm going to be a bit sad when the series is over, probably a lot, but in a lot of ways, I'll be excited. Because I'm going to be free to do whatever I want now. I won't have to arrange my entire life around the time and date of a KP episode. That kind of thing. I mean, if there's something on tv that I wanna watch I don't have to see when it is on and if it's on at the same time as a KP episode. Not that I won't miss that. Because, the last four years have been great, finding a show like Kim Possible was a ONCE-IN-A-LIFETIME thing. I mean, in 30 years, how likely will be, when I'm 50 that I will have spent a couple of years devoting my entire life to a single series, recording episodes, buying a ton of merchandise, owning scripts, etc? Slim to none. I don't think I will ever find another show that will ever have the same impact on my life that Kim Possible did. Yeah, I fell head over heels for Mighty Morphin Power Rangers (no recording of episodes) but I was insane for the show enough to have a Pink Power Ranger cake for my 8th birthday. And, I won't go looking for a show that would effect me like KP did. Because that kind of shit just happens. I was not looking to find Kim Possible. I didn't go out of my way to see it. It just happened. And even if 30 years from now (yes, I practically consider myself 20 now), I have not found another show exactly like Kim Possible or have affected me like her, I will be happy. I look forward to how I will go through life having learned so much lessons from Kim Possible and not knowing what's in my future.” While South Park is reaching some of this altitude, it’s not the same. Well, maybe it is, but alas. I also shared my distinct wish and love of time travel. There was also the very wonderful Thank you video to the members. There was entries where I mourned Kim and said goodbye to her, which helped me to as the Backstreet Boys song said, “You can let go.” This month also began a slow interest coming back to South Park. And a short fleeting interest in HM Queen Elizabeth II. And of course, my final decision about fighting for the KP series, on the 19th, “So, right now I'm torn between my KP feelings. Should I fight for a season 5 or should I just leave it alone and move on? I mean, there are pros and cons for both. I mean, I'd feel more loyal to the series if I was fighting, but the con to fighting for season 5 is the very idea that somebody else may work on KP and not Bob, Mark, and Steve. I mean, they've went on to Nickelodeon (to do separate projects, well Bob and Mark together, and Steve alone). And, I'm happy with how the series ended. I'm just dealing with saying goodbye and the grief that comes with that. Plus, I'm ready to move on with my life. I'm about to turn 20! That signals a new chapter in my life. A new decade. Not that Kim will be thrown from my life completely, because I still love the Backstreet Boys and Nick Carter even though my love of them was climaxed in between 2000 and 2002. But, like, I'm ready to go onto my next life-stage, and if I have to go back and give up days of my life to go watch another season of KP (as was the custom, I gave up an entire day to doing just watching KP), I dunno how to react. I'd be upset. I mean, the series is over, I'd love to see a season 5, but IF AND ONLY IF Bob, Mark, Steve and other KP folks were on it. I couldn't watch if it was done by someone else (I would but it wouldn't be the same thing). I mean, a movie would be great, but not another season. I guess I have my answer. I probably won't be a fight for fiver. I've been expecting me to have a epiphany of S T D-epic proportions where I'm like, "I love this show, so I should fight for it," but it's not happening. So, I guess I won't. I will fight for boxsets, which is easiest for me.” An interest in Meerkat Manor for a while. And an interesting little time where I begin talking about imagination and realness, that later fits with a South Park episode. On the 30th, “Plus, with Harry Potter and Kim Possible, all of that is fictional. It is not real. Yes, I will admit that both these series are fictional, no matter how much I wish they were real.” And by the end of the month, I was in love with South Park. October. This month began my serious semi-obsession with South Park and the beginning of a new decade of my life! As well as still some mourning of Kim Possible, which slowly went away as the month passed and of course, some great times with how funny Bush was and banning books. Great entry on the 8th, “So, like I spent most of yesterday watching South Park. I love that there is like several websites that allow you to watch the episodes for free. I mean, dude, too cool. Plus, I think my whole mourning of KP thing is being drowned by watching this show. Plus, I guess I feel safe watching South Park, because it's been given a contract to go on until 2011, which is like... dude! But, seriously, Comedy Central isn't gonna end that show when it's their top show. I mean, they seriously aren't. The only show they really ended was Chappelle's when he went crazy and backed out. Look at the Daily Show. Been on longer than South Park, by a year. I like that, knowing they aren't gonna be like Disney and have an episode LIMIT. Frick, I mean, Daily Show has 1400 plus episodes! Plus, I do like South Park, and consider it to be very close to my top favorite shows, like 6. I still remember my first episodes, "Cartman's Mom is A Dirty Slut" and "Cartman's Mom Is Still a Dirty Slut." And the thing that I kinda like is that it sort of follows most Cartoon rules, the characters, don't really age. I mean, they've aged like... what? 1 grade. If they had them growing one year every season, they'd be my age now! But, that's why South Park is funny, 8 and 9 year old little boys are just freaking crazy. I mean, I've been watching the show since at least '98/'98 on and off. I watched it frequently in middle school because the school was called South Park Middle School. Turns out, that SPMS was not as cool as the show. And that's all she wrote.” And of course, this month also began my odd attraction to the South Park boys! And of course there was the charity drive at RS.net that ended up raking in more than $2,500 dollars. I wrote this also about South Park on the 13th, “ I think if Stan or Kyle (or both) were ten years older (making them my age, yo), I'd so be with them. Personally, I'd sooo love to see an episode where they're about 13 or 14 or a little older. That'd be just crazy. I expect they'll be bad kids, and prolly still friends with each other, even though Cartman is the world's biggest asshole. I love Cartman, I can slightly relate to him. SLIGHTLY. The whole... one parent thing. It's probably why I watched the show from the beginning. Anyways, the reason why I think they'd be friends with each other, when they are older is simply because of the Kim and Ron factor. They met so young that they'll end up putting up with the crap the other pulls because they have such strong friendship.” It’s interesting to see some of the stuff I said earlier in the year coming true. And then there was the incident where my mother and I were involved in a car accident. We were okay, and the car ended up looking better. And of course, the last three weeks of this month had some of my favorite South Park episodes ever: The Imaginationland trilogy! I loved this on the 19th, “It's been 6 weeks as of today since Kim Possible's final episode aired. And I'm honestly okay. I've actually moved on. I can actually handle life without Kim Possible. It's different and exciting and new. I mean, I've moved on. Yeah, the show is over, but dude, that's okay. I can handle it. I've moved on. Plus, South Park came at the right time. I re-discovered it and now it's taken it's place back where it belonged.” And of course my twentieth birthday! “Anyways, I mean, yeah, I don't feel the same except I am no longer considered a teenager. That chapter of my life is over. I am an adult, who's still unable to drink alcohol legally. Not that I care, because I don't drink alcohol anyway. And that's really not my thing. But, yeah, this has been the best decade of my life. And, yes, indeed, I know that's a little hollow coming from someone who has had 2 decades of life thus far. Look at all the things I've had come in my life and make an impact on it in the past ten years: Titanic, South Park, Shane, The Internet, 9/11, middle school, high school, college, Kim Possible, Harry Potter, Hank, Star Wars, Pirates of the Caribbean, The Golden Girls, Will & Grace, DVDs, iPods, writing, photography, and more. The past ten years basically have formed who I am today. Which is something I'm proud of. This birthday is a milestone. It's the end of being a teenager, the start of being a twenty-something. This diary has seen me become 15, 16, 17, 18, and 19 years old. And now, I am 20 years old. I turned a decade and a half, I gained more freedom, and I became an adult. Now I start the next part of my life.” What a good month! Whooyah! November. The month started off shitty with the insane recarpeting of the whole fucking house adventure that first was mentioned in June/July and the death of my desk… for one day. And of course, the line from a television series that made me cry, "Its all real. Think about it. Haven't Luke Skywalker and Santa Claus affected your lives more than most real people in this room? I mean, whether Jesus is real or not, he's had a bigger impact on the world than any of us have. And the same can be said for Bugs Bunny and Superman and Harry Potter. They've changed my life, changed the way I act on the earth. Doesn't that make them kind of real? They might be imaginary, but they're more important than most of us here. And they're all gonna be around till long after we're dead. So in a way, those things are more realer than any of us." Because as I wrote on the 2nd, “Because, dude, Kyle hit it right on the nail. I can vouch for that. KP, The Lion King, South Park, Harry Potter, Star Wars, whether they are real or not, they've had a huge impact on my life. They've changed it, they change the way I act, they changed who I am, and I know I say this alot, but dude, I can't help it. Also, there was the revelation that I was okay with guy-on-guy sex. Which rocks, because at least I’m not hypocritical. And then there is some insane stuff where I dote on Kyle Broflovski. Oh, yeah, and my cousin had Gavin! I did a lot of stuff related to school work. Yay for that. I love this on the 18th: “I gotta say this, if we got a season 5 for Kim Possible, you know what I would do? I know this sounds blasphemous for a KP fan to say and selfish and Cartman-like, but I would do a Cartman, go to Disney Channel studios, and do what he did in Cartoon Wars. I mean, dude, I love KP, but the show is over, it's time to let it die before it becomes Power Rangers or Pokemon. My cousin Whitney is a Pokemon fan and she tells me how bad the new stuff sucks. I would much rather Kim had gone out the way she did in Graduation then go out with horrible ratings and a crappy season.” I also realized my love of Jewish guys. Oh, yeah, and the end of the month, I out myself for having been a little nasty to South Park in the past. Good times! December. It was the month of Christmas, final exams, a break from school, and meeting little Gavin. There was the revelation of who my name sake was and what I was going to name my kids for and a haircut. On Decemebr 4th, “I forgot to mention this, but given I was busy showing tons of baby sleeping photos, I didn't mention it. While I was dissing Kat's name choice, and she was like, at least it's not Ashley, my aunt and grandma went on a tangent about my mom naming me my first name, the world's most popular fucking name. Actually, I think the world's most popular name is Mohammad. But, I don't know many guys named Mohammad and it seems I have at least one other Ashley in a class. So, yeah. Anyways, apparently, my name was inspired by or I was named for or after a fictional character. And it's weird because I always felt an odd connection to this character. I'm named after Ashley Abbott from the Young and the Restless. Indeed. Ashley Abbott. She of course is on Bold and Beautiful too, but, whatever. Well, at least I'm not named for that bitch Ashley Judd. :D” There was happiness over Michael Vick’s conviction and my love of the Jewish people. And on the 12th, talking lamely about this: “How awesome is that? The creators of the show, Matt and Trey with their creations, Kenny, Cartman, Stan, and Kyle. Looking extremely very gay. Kyle in a pinstriped suit, Cartman wearing a scarf, khakis, and a very nice sweater, and Stan looking very nice in what he's wearing. It's enough for me to have naughty thoughts about everyone in the picture. But, aside from that. It hit a chord with me as I remember things I've said about Kim Possible. Remember how I've said how Bob Schooley and Mark McCorkle are like Kim Possible's fathers/parents, cuz they created her? And, in the same vein, Matt Stone and Trey Parker are the boys' fathers/parents on some level, because of the same reason. And, it's kind of totally awesome to see a photo like that. I guess I'm touched by them being it a photo with them.” There was me bitching about Kat being a bad parent, writing quotes for my quote book for Harry Potter and Star Wars, there was my grades for the semester and a Star Wars marathon. There was finishing my sixth handwritten diary, going to my seventh, and my ten year anniversary of writing in a diary of sorts! And an insane little remark on the 28th: “So, last night, from 8:30 pm to like 11 pm last night, Comedy Central had a great marathon of South Park: Simpsons Already Did It, Christian Rock Hard, The Jeffersons, Trapped in the Closet, The Return of Chef. Good times. I mean, truly "offensive" episodes. Cartman does fellatio on a man (unseen, but it's kind of inferred as unbelievably fucked up as that is), Cartman exploits Christianity and says "Fuck Jesus!", Michael Jackson wrecks havoc in South Park, as does the Scientologists, and Chef dies. Anyways. You might wonder why I put "offensive" in quotation marks. Because to me, they aren't offensive. I mean, yes, the fellatio thing in Simpsons and Cartman using "fuck" and "Jesus" in the same sentence makes me feel... uncomfortable at worst, but I don't believe in being offended by anything. Life is too short to get offended.” And so, we end 2007, and start off 2008. It was a good year, a bad year, a fun year, a sad year, a joyful year, all of these! It was everything. The end of a relatively interesting year that changed my life, a year that held a lot of challenges, and a lot of wonderful times I shall always remember with a smile. Happy New Year. |
